This tarot journey started with a flight to australia. a desolate ride, with exictement, this was a new country, after all. I had a gig to play - an underground fetish dance party. i had a bag of records and a tired credit card.

landing in melbourne, i was early. i decided to get something to occupy my mind, a book, perhaps. i walked into the bookshop and started to browse.

When i was 11, i swore my life in service to the godess of wisdom, i pictured her as the moon. it was a heartfelt conviction. Weather manipulation, communication with pixies and limited psychic events had leant me an interest in the mystic, which sat easily with my hard mathematical and scientific training (thanks Mum!)

Tarot had been an occupation. I'd read my sister's cards, and predicted her affairs and heartaches. I later read my own, and saw my examination results and my holidays...

later on in life, i had a beautiful Egyptian tarot deck. it seemed to work, and i loved it. i gave it away, as i was still superstitious, and someone i didn't trust played with it.

this time, my eye alighted on a 'learner's tarot', complete with book. An ideal item to enlighten my travel. i bought it, and the journey began in earnest. Study, in depth. Practice, every day. write down the spread. note feelings and impressions, attempt a reading, keep a diary, life and dream. allow the nonconsious access, give the conscious something to work with. I soon met a High Priestess, almost as if she was expecting me. She taught me without words a deeper understanding of the flow, of the nature of the tarot communication. She played with me, using NLP to prepare me for the changes life would bring. I glimpsed other worlds, and saw her style of magic. it was beautiful, it was enticing, it was powerful.

An accident and a missing dog gave me the chance to test the cards thouroughly. we asked, and they gave us direction. While they did not lead us directly to the dog, taken as a part of the mundane and the magical energies that we brought to the task, they spoke truth.

returning to england, after a disastorous relationship, my Mum encouraged me to focus on making my own deck. i drew a few pictures, which captured my feelings so strongly, printed out 78 blank cards and began. My learning deck was passed on, and phase two began.

i am now in new zealand, having completed the creation of the traditional cards. i've been forced to add a new suit, because my understanding of life has changed, grown so much. Spirals - representing Growth, movement and life have appeared, the new zealand 'koru' captured in spirit. i await the arrival of the rest of the suit. already the designs are flowering, as my art spreads across everything i own! it is a challenge to capture the flowing, changing, depth of the art and bring it into cards. i feel like i am born again, hence my change of name to "Flow Ir In". Blind, learning to see in an immensley complex spiritual-social magical world. I still commit the most ridiculous errors, and still have to endure the consequences of my actions, but at last, i sense the presence of a loving god, sence the existence of a force-full, tangible love, taste the interconnectedness and intense synathesia of form and concept, action and intention of this world. This deck is part of that web, this deck has been an integral part of my education and this deck contains so much love, knowledge, wisdom and transcendental beauty that i know that i was helped, every step of the way.

i recommend you, if you are at all interested in tarot, to consider creating your own as a essential part of your learning.

i offer mine in the hope/knowlege that it brings you to a more Flow In space.